a complaining post

I realize that everybody has their problems. I realize that everybody has difficulty level on their problems. I know that I have to be strong, tough, and mature to face all shit things in my life. I know that I shouldn't have to complain for every problem that comes to my life. I know that I have to be thankful for everything from Allah. For million times, there's only one thing that I want to do, I want to share all my thoughts, I want to complain all my shit things, I want to ask all my questions, and I want to be listened by someone either with my best friends or my another family member. All I need is someone or anyone who wants to listen my sad songs. All I need is sharing with someone or anyone who wants to listen my trashy sad stories. I'm not a drama queen. I never hope that I would find a happiness like in a romantic tale story. I never hope that my life would be wonderful like every princess in the world. I never hope that my life would be a happy ending story like cinderella. Dear Allah, I want to live with simple living, even though there would be many problems, at least I want to be listened by anyone who wants to listen my trashy sad stories.

Hello life! Hello problems!

Life, I have bravery to struggle with all problems

Life, I have a big confidence to solve all problems

Life, I have a big heart to deal with all problems

Life, I have a strong body to face all problems

Life, I have a masculinity inside of my femininity to meet with all problems

This photo is taken from my dad's folder, he was seeing sunset in Kaimana, Papua

Life, I have a powerful soul to stand and give a sincere smile to all problems

Life, I have a cheerful smile to say "hello" to all problems

Life, I have a great laugh to laugh to all problems

Life, I have great friends to accompany me and to be my shoulder to find out the solution from all problems

Life, I have Allah SWT to help me out from all problems

This post is dedicated for everyone who has problem and never feel tired to face all problems.. :)

A letter to my sister

To my beloved sister,

Since we were kid, I've believed that we would build a good friendship like all people do with their sister or brother.
Since we were kid, I've promised with myself to protect you from crimes and dangers in my whole life.
Since we were kid, I've told to myself that I would be a good sister and a role model for you.

I'm sure, no matter how big the storm hit either you or our family, you would stand up with your own feet.
I'm sure, no matter how big the rock hit either you or our family, you would say : "I'm still strong".
I'm sure, no matter how big the storm hit either you or our family, you would prove that you are fine as much as you can.
I'm sure, no matter how big the rock hit either you or our family, you would keep smiling, laughing, and also doing something fun yet useful.




This afternoon, I saw you that you couldn't stop laughing with me and our parents..
This afternoon, I saw you that you couldn't stop smiling to anyone around you..
This afternoon, I saw you that you couldn't stop eating something delicious..
This afternoon, I saw you that you couldn't stop acting very spoiled to us..
This afternoon, I saw you that you couldn't stop playing Scrabble with me..
This afternoon, I saw you that you didn't want to miss any seconds or any minutes with us.. This afternoon, I saw you that you didn't let me to be the winner at Scrabble.. (hehehe)

Well, this is not a poem, this is only what's on my mind, and this is my thought at this time.. Anyway, selamat merayakan hari Nyepi bagi para bloggers yang merayakannya! Always be peaceful with love!

Hidup = abstrak, rumit, dan indah

Hidup itu memang abstrak.
Abstrak karena kita selalu berhadapan dengan berbagai pertanyaan.
Abstrak karena kita terkadang belum mendapatkan jawaban atas berbagai pertanyaan yang ada.
Abstrak karena semuanya masih abu-abu.
Abstrak karena kita belum mendapatkan kejelasan dan kepastian tentang apa sih hidup itu dan apa tujuannya?.

foto ini dibuat oleh fanny

Hidup itu memang rumit.
Rumit karena kita selalu menghadapi masalah.
Rumit karena masalah yang datang tidak hanya satu, tetapi dua atau bahkan lebih dari dua.
Rumit karena kita selalu berhadapan dengan pilihan.
Rumit karena ketika kita sudah memutuskan sebuah pilihan, maka kita harus menerima segala konsekuensinya, baik dan buruk.

Hidup itu pada akhirnya akan indah.
Indah karena kita telah mengetahui jawaban atas semua pertanyaan.
Indah karena kita telah menerima jawaban tersebut dengan lapang dada dan ikhlas.
Indah karena kita bisa lulus melewati segala macam masalah dengan tenang dan pikiran dingin.
Indah karena kita bisa memutuskan sesuatu hal dengan segala konsekuensinya.
Indah karena kita selalu tegar dan sabar dalam menjalankan hidup.
Indah karena kita selalu memberi kepada orang lain.
Indah karena kita selalu meminta perlindungan kepada Allah SWT.

foto ini diambil oleh fanny

He's Just Not That Into You

"Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up. If a guy punches you he likes you. Never try to trim your own bangs and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending. Every movie we see, Every story we're told implores us to wait for it, the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. But sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending we don't learn how to read the signs. How to tell from the ones who want us and the ones who don't, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. And maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe... it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is... just... moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the unreturned phone calls, broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment you never gave up hope.." --- by Gigi

The passage above is a quote which is taken from He's Just Not That Into You. This quote is given by Gigi after she won the game of love with Alex, and she became his exception. I never feel bored to see every scene in that movie for million times. He's Just Not That Into You is a good with movie with suprising plot, stories, and ideas about love. We're all taught not only about the definition of love, but also how to play the game of love, including who will be the role and who will be the exception of its game. This movie knows what men want and what women want. I'm sure you guys have watched this movie, haven't you? I don't mean to recommend, but it's another side of myself to show off how great the movie is.

a great short conversation

I had a great short conversation last night with someone. Here is..

Me : I never imagine when I will be married by someone, because I don't want marry with
someone early. I have to consider all things, not only love to share with someone, but also
our thought, vision, mission, money, and many others. I'm not ready at all for a marriage.

Him: Me too, i've to finish my study, insya Allah next year. And then, I've to look for a job, I
should have much money to propose someone. I don't want to marry someone if I still
still don't have any money. We have to live logically and realistic, not in a dream. In the
past, I used to play in every day, now I didn't want to play anymore. Because I'm getting
older and i want to be the leader in my family.

Actually, there are many topics that we talked about last night. And what I wrote above is the best part conversation that I love. Anyway, nice to meet you, nice to talk with you! :)

a bit touch editing

1) Karin, Didiet, and me sat in front of gold bullion at Museum Bank Indonesia

2) Dodi and Didiet photographed themselves














3) Hanum had a bowl of frozen yoghurt yesterday

4) Froyo as our snack in yesterday evening
















5) My parents were photographed by my sister

Recently, I'm interested in editing photos by using adobe photoshop. I don't know why I love editing photos by now. I'm not an expert of photography like my little sister. Fanny, my little sister, is very good at taking pictures and editing photos. I'm proud of her. I do love being a photographer, even though all my photos are not good as hers. I also love being an object who will be captured by the camera. Well, talking about my new interest, i want to show all the photos which has been edited by myself. Leave your comment, please!

I hate being left by my best friends

Saya paling benci kehilangan seseorang. Saya paling benci ditinggal oleh seseorang, apalagi jika saya ditinggal keluarga dan sahabat. Dulu, saya pernah ditinggal sahabat saya, Mega. Dia pergi ninggalin saya bukan karena dia jahat sama saya. Tetapi dia menuntut ilmu di kota kelahirannya para filsuf dunia, seperti Immanuel Kant dan Karl Marx. Ya, tepat sekali. Mega beralih ingin menginjakkan kakinya di Jerman. Saya lupa persisnya tahun berapa dia meninggalkan tanah air. Kalau tidak salah 2006 atau 2007. Tapi, saya sedih sekali pada malam hari menjelang kepergiannya.

this is me and mega

Saat ini saya sedang sedih karena Dian, salah satu sahabat saya, akan meninggalkan kota Bekasi untuk bekerja di Cirebon. Dia diterima di salah satu hotel berbintang di kota Cirebon dan akan bekerja sebagai management trainee, yang sesuai dengan latar belakang jurusannya, yaitu psikologi.

this is me and dian

I hate being left by my bestfriends. Because it's not easy for me to call my friend as best friend. Because it's not easy to find some people who can be trusted as best friend. Because it's not easy to tell our problem to other people than to our best friend. Because other people are not honest as our best friend. Who doesn't hate the situation like this? I'm the one who does. But, this is how life is supposed to be. In our whole life, we'll meet with many people with their different personalities. However, we never forget our bestfriend indeed . And i think, perhaps it's the best choice for them to be a success woman. I'll be proud of my bestfriends who could be success in the future. One day, we'll meet again by bringing our goals and achievements. Amin.

Meryl Streep

Meryl Streep is one of my favorite actress. I adore her since Meryl Streep starred in The Devil Wears Prada by 2006. The Devil Wears Prada is a drama romance yet a bit of comedy movie. In The Devil Wears Prada, I was amazed by her as the executive editor in Runway fashion magazine. She looks so sophisticated.


In 2008, I was amazed by her in Mamma Mia! Even if Mamma Mia! is a musical movie and this movie is dedicated for those who are big fans of ABBA, but i don't mind, i always love to see Meryl Streep! In Mamma Mia!, Meryl Streep plays as a mother of Sophie who is about to be married by a young Greek man (huh, i forget his name!). Without telling her mother, Sophie invites three men who could be her father, they are Harry, Bill, and Sam. One point i love to see from this movie is the scenery of Greek Island, sooo pretty, also beautiful!



Recently, i watched Meryl Streep in Julie and Julia. Julie and Julia is a biography drama comedy movie. This movie is based on true stories which is from two books, the books are My Life in France (Julia Child's autobiography) and Julie & Julia (a memoir which is written by Julie Powell). She plays as Julia Child, a real-life character. This movie tells about Julia's and Julie's life. In 1949, Julia as the wife of a diplomat, wonders how to spend her days. Julia decides to have a cooking course in Cordon Bleu. She starts cooking until she is a master of cooking then published her book with her friends. This book is "Mastering The Art of Cooking". In 2002, Julie Powell, a young housewife who doesn't have a passion with her job, tries to cook all the recipes from "Mastering The Art of Cooking" in a year then publish it in a blog "The Julie/Julia Project" (do you want to see julie's blog?click here). In short, the similarity among Julia and Julie is a good housewife with a great ability to cook, because every woman must be good at cooking to be loved by their husbands.

Guys, from three movies above, there is a similiarity about Meryl Streep. The similiarity is Meryl Streep is always paired with the new young actresses. In The Devil Wears Prada, Anne Hathaway is paired with Meryl Streep, Anne plays as the asisstant of Meryl. Then, In Mamma Mia!, Amanda Seyfried is paired with Meryl Streep as her daughter. Same as the previous movies, Meryl Streep is paired with Amy Adams, although they are never in one frame. So, who will be the next actress to be paired with Meryl Streep? We'll wait and we'll see another Meryl Streep movie! :)

The Ramen Girl and Brittany Murphy

Few days ago, like our routine in the weekend, my sister and i always spend the holiday or weekend by watching some movies at home. A movie that we have chosen to rent was The Ramen Girl. The Ramen Girl tells about Abby (Brittany Murphy), an aimless child of privilege, comes to Tokyo to be with her boyfriend, who promptly leaves for Osaka. I can't believe how dare her boyfriend leaves Abby alone in Tokyo.

Abby wants to stay in Tokyo in hoping her boyfriend will come back to her, but she's miserable in Tokyo. Abby can't speak Japanese properly and she always speaks by using English, not Japanese! Abby has a boring job as a law-firm gopher. One night, she came in to the ramen shop which is very close to her flat. When she was arriving at there, she cried and told to the owner of the ramen shop. And you know what, she cried and told by using English! not Japanese! Of course, the owner didn't know what to do because both of them didn't understand any English words. Sounds soo silly, isn't it?

The owner of the ramen shop is a couple. They are the aging master chef Maezumi and his wife Reiko. His soup cheers Abby up, so she decides to apprentice herself to him. He's not interested with Abby at all, but Abby is still insistent, so he shouts at her and gives her all the cleaning work to do. Weeks go by. She's persistent. She is trying to do her best to prove that she can make a bowl of ramen. Abby is still trying to prove in order to chef Maezumi will teach how to make a delicious ramen for the customer. Is she able to prove that she deserve to be the next generation of chef Maezumi?

Well, i can't say how the ending part of this movie. I won't say on my post, so you all have curiousity to watch The Ramen Girl. I'll continue to tell about another part of this movie. The Ramen Girl teaches us about how to survive and do the best for our work, so we can get the money and we can live happily because we love our job. The Ramen Girl is released on October 2008, one year before the main cast died on December 2009. Ya, i'm talking about Brittany Murphy. For your info, in this movie, Brittany Murphy is the only one actress from Hollywood among the Japanese actor also actress. So, this movie is unique and funny. Unique, because Brittany (as Hollywood actress) plays as the servant of Japanese to help their ramen shop. Abby must learn about their Japan language and their culture to be suit around them. Funny, because of Brittany's act in this movie. Unfortunately, we can't see her act again. Besides The Ramen Girl, she has starred in many movies, for example: Happy Feet, Just Married, Uptown Girls, Tinker Bell, and many more. A young and talented actress has died on December 2009. May God always keep her in a rest peace. amin.

Bye, brittany, we love you!

all quotes are so mine

Quote is something to state our life by using a sentence, in my definition. Quote is something important for me to express what i think about life. I can stand up by using all quote. I can see all problems from different view by using all quote. Here are all quotes that very suitable in my life.

"don't judge a book by its cover"-anonymous

"I don't want to be the best, but, I'm only be able to help people around me"-this one is made by myself

"Some people dream of success, others make it happen, let me be the people who makes it happen!"-anonymous

"A room without books is like a body without a soul."
— Marcus Tullius Cicero

"Lebih baik diasingkan daripada menyerah pada kemunafikan"-Gie

"Say what you mean, mean what you say"-George Smith Patton, Jr.


"Say what you mean, mean what you say, don't say it mean"-this quote is taken from Second Chance by Jane Green

"Real friends can be defined as friends who aren't rivals, aren't pretending to be friendly to find work, aren't judging you for how famous you are"-this quote is taken from Second Chance by Jane Green

"If you judge about me too much, don't claim yourself as my real friend"-This is one is made by myself"-this one is made by myself too!

"The most successful people are those who are good at plan B"-James Yorke (i saw this quote in one of articles on Kompas)

"Life is a book. Everyday has a new page with adventure to tell, lessons to learn, and tales to remember"-this one is made by myself

Some of my quotes tell about friendship, life, and success.

Soulmate

Before i start telling what i'll write in my blog at this moment, i'm thinking for a while: "should i tell you all about soulmate?". I'm a bit ashamed to talk about someone will be called by myself as soulmate. Ok, where do i start?

Couple days ago, i met with one of my college friends, she is Nova. She told me that she is being proposed by someone. Wow, i was sooo happy and glad to listen her story about being proposed by a great man. When she told about the man (who proposes her to be his wife), i was wondering the man must be lucky to propose nova, so did Nova. I saw her excitement from her face. I saw her happiness from a slow tempo that she uses to tell. I also was excited to listen every part of her story about being proposed. Because, i have never felt how exactly my feeling for being proposed by someone. But, I think, If I were being proposed by the right man, I would be very blissful, full of happiness, and i couldn't describe my feeling by using any words.

On that day, i spent some hours with Nova by sharing lot of stories. It was such a great day to share lot of stories. But, there was a question (from Nova) which is i hate enough to answer. Soory to say, nov. She asked me, "when will you have a boyfriend?or partner?". At that time, i had realized one thing that all my besties already have their right men to be their boyfriend first, not partner in life. And one thing that i realize is all my besties are very affectionate to take care of me, including Nova. All my besties are never bored to ask me about my future partner or who my boyfriend is at right now. Perhaps, i'm getting bored to be asked by everyone.


I don't know when i will have the right man to be my boyfriend firstly. Because of my past, i'm a bit careful to choose which one is the best man to be with me, or which one is the most suitable man to spend some hours, some days, and some weeks with me, my family, and his family too. Actually, I don't want to fall into the same hole again like what i did in my previous relationship. It made me hurt. Well, i'm not trying to dramatize my story in past. Not hurt. But, at least I could feel a bit of happiness in a beautiful relationship. Ok, not beautiful. I know that every relationship has their own way, has their story, has their sadness, not always happiness in their relationship. Ok, i'll stop to debate about definitions of relationship with my own mind.

Back to the main topic. Soulmate. Some people say that being twenty or twenties is something hard. I do feel the same like everybody. Because, there are many questions which is always buzz in our ears, for example : "when will you get your master degree?", "when will you get married?", "when will you get the best job with good salary?", and also "what criteria to be your husband?do you try to get the best man?". Oh, my god, see? it's quiet hard to answer, not like exam or thesis defension at college. But, a question that i always find is "is there any criteria to be your husband or soulmate?". I'll answer: "Yes, I do have few criteria for someone who wants to be my soulmate".

I always wonder some criteria to be my future partner. He must be a good muslim to guide me as a good muslim too. He must be affectionate to his family, me, and my family. He must be smarter than me in every aspects. Or sometimes, I wonder that he could play the words in scrabble together with me and my future son or daughter. Sometimes, I wonder that he could take exercise together in every evening and every saturday-sunday morning. Sometimes, I wonder that he could spend our spare time by reading book or watching movie or cooking at home. Sounds wonderful, isn't it?

Oh, my.. what post i did write above, ok, for anyone who reads my blog, especially my this silly post. I beg you not to laugh while you're reading this silly post. Thank you!

Le Grand Voyage

Idul Adha adalah hari raya untuk berkurban.

Tidak hanya berkurban dengan kambing atau sapi saja, tetapi juga mengorbankan segala hal untuk kepentingan yang lebih mulia lagi. Misalnya saja, potret seorang anak dan bapaknya yang mengorbankan semua hal untuk dapat pergi haji ke Mekah. Begitulah potret di dalam film Le Grand Voyage.

Saya belum pernah nonton Le Grand Voyage sebelumnya. Ketika Metro TV menayangkannya semalam, saya sempatkan untuk menonton film Le Grand Voyage. Saya tersentuh sekali. Tersentuh karena banyak pesan moral yang bisa diambil di dalam film ini.

Film Le Grand Voyage mengisahkan bagaimana perjalanan seorang anak dan ayahnya dari Perancis menuju ke Mekah dengan menggunakan mobil tua mereka. Bisa dibayangkan berapa mil yang harus mereka tempuh dalam perjalanan mereka. Mulai dari Italia, Slovenia, Kroasia, Serbia, Bulgaria, Turki, Suriah, Yordania, hingga Arab Saudi. Reda (diperankan oleh Nicolas Cazale) adalah seorang remaja yang tidak mengetahui banyak tentang Islam dibandingkan ayahnya. Reda sudah terkontaminasi oleh budaya barat sehingga ia tidak pernah melakukan salat dalam kehidupan sehari-harinya. Berbeda dengan ayahnya (diperankan oleh Mohamed Majd), yang justru memegang teguh agama Islam.

Perjalanan dimulai ketika ayah Reda meminta Reda untuk mengantarkannya ke Mekkah dengan menggunakan mobil butut. Reda sempat bertanya dengan ayahnya, "Mengapa kita tidak naik pesawat saja?". Ayahnya pun menjawab, "Air laut baru akan kehilangan rasa pahitnya setelah ia menguap ke langit, begitulah air laut menemui kemurniannya. Ia harus mengangkasa melewati awan. Inilah mengapa lebih baik naik haji berjalan kaki ketimbang naik kuda. Lebih baik naik kuda ketimbang naik mobil. Lebih baik naik mobil ketimbang naik perahu. Lebih baik naik perahu ketimbang naik pesawat terbang". Artinya, semakin kita merasakan betapa sulitnya perjalanan ini, maka semakin mudah kita menemukan kemurnian jiwa kita sendiri. Bijak dan indah.

Selama perjalanan, mereka menemui banyak orang dengan karakter yang berbeda-beda. Awal mulanya mereka bertemu dengan wanita tua yang ingin menumpang di dalam mobil untuk ikut hingga suatu tempat. Namun, keperawakan dan penampilan wanita tua membuat Reda dan ayahnya sedikit ketakutan. Sehingga, mereka memutuskan untuk membeli sebuah kamar hotel untuk wanita tua tersebut. Mereka pun melanjutkan perjalanan tanpanya.

Setelah Reda dan ayahnya melepas wanita tua itu, kejadian buruk pun datang bertubi-tubi. Mulai dari mobil yang tertimpa salju, ayah sakit kemudian dirawat di rumah sakit, masalah paspor, dan ditipu oleh saudagar yang bernama Mustafa. Ada satu bagian yang saya suka. Ketika ayahnya mengetahui bahwa Mustafa telah mencuri sebagian uang miliknya, ia pun memarahi Reda sambil berkata, "Kamu bisa membaca dan menulis tetapi kamu tidak tahu apa-apa tentang hidup". Ya, hidup memang tidak demikian mudah. Saat kita mengenal beberapa orang di luar sana, kita harus bisa membedakan siapa yang baik dan siapa yang buruk. Kita tidak hanya cukup membutuhkan satu atau dua hari saja untuk mengenal seseorang, melainkan berhari-hari.

Kemudian mereka pun melanjutkan perjalanan. Sesampainya di Suriah, ketika sang ayah hendak mengambil air, datanglah seorang pengemis. Walaupun uang mereka sudah tidak sedikit lagi, tetapi sang ayah tetap memberikan uang kepada pengemis tersebut. Melihat apa yang dilakukan sang ayah, Reda pun marah. Reda marah karena sikap ayahnya yang tidak bisa mengabaikan kesulitan yang dialami orang lain dan selalu menolong terhadap sesama. Saya juga jatuh cinta dengan adegan ini.

Saya sangat suka film yang disutradarai Ismael Feroukhi secara keseluruhan. Terlalu banyak pelajaran berharga yang bisa diambil dari film ini, sehingga saya tidak bisa menceritakannya satu per satu di sini. Saya hanya merekomendasikan kalian untuk menonton film Le Grand Voyage. Film ini mengajarkan bagaimana kita menolong terhadap sesama, bagaimana kita saling memaafkan, bagaimana kita sebaiknya berusaha dahulu untuk mendapatkan sesuatu, bagaimana kita hidup dalam kesederhanaan, dan bagaimana kita selalu ingat kepada Allah SWT.

selamat hari raya Idul Adha!

Froyo - frozen yoghurt

It's already weekend on the last day of october, it means we're gonna say goodbye to october, then we'll be starting to do our real activites on november.. time runs so fast, doesn't it? We don't mind how time runs so fast, at least, when weekend already comes, we'd better relax, go out, do shopping, do something fun, or perhaps eat any new dishes, foods, and desserts.

If you don't want to spend much money by shopping or seeing movie at the cinema, you should have try frozen yoghurt (or froyo) as your dessert after having lunch. I suggest you to eat this dessert in the evening while you do chatting and gossiping with your friends. Well, who doesn't love to consume frozen yoghurt or froyo? of course, whoever you are, you'll be falling in love with this dish as your favourite dessert to eat together with your friends, colleagues, and your siblings.

left to right: wiwid, me, and hanum are ravenous to eat a big cup of sour sally at Pejaten Village

Froyo is made from yoghurt, so the taste of froyo is very sour. Even though this dessert consists of milk, but you don't have to worry about the ingredients of fat in a small/medium/big cup of froyo, since the fat is low enough.


If you don't like its taste which is sour, at Sour Sally, for example you may add any ice cubes and milk below the yoghurt. Perhaps, when you choose the topping, you need to combine the topping between fruit and dry topping, it's better to make your froyo much more sweetly not sour. Trust me, if you don't like the taste of an original froyo, you'd better go to J-Co's stand at Mall near from your house, and then buy a single/couple/sharing cup of J-cool, you'll see the difference between an original froyo at Sour Sally and a cup of froyo at J-cool. The taste of froyo at J-cool is not as sour as an original froyo at Sour Sally, i recommend J-cool for anyone who doesn't like much sour.


According to the fact in any magazines or newspaper, having froyo as dessert is becoming a new example of life style which everyone loves to consume this dessert in their daily life. Come on, try froyo as newly dessert in your daily life, it makes your mind health and fresh in the weekend! Have a nice weekend everyone!:)

an earthquake & batik as the national symbol on october

hey, it's already on october! i always love to spend day-to-day on this month, maybe because of a lot of people are going to celebrate their birthday on october, they're my dad, my sister, hanum, my uncle, my cousins, and other my beloved people around me. I hope everything will be fine on this month, amien! I hope Allah wouldn't give any problems or accidents or bad news, i hope so..

but, I was shocked when I saw a tweet from Kompas which delivers a bad news about a 7.6-magnitude earthquake rocked in Sumatera Barat on last wednesday. Then, on thursday morning, i was sad because another earthquake just happened in Jambi. I can't imagine how many people are died and buried in there. I can't imagine how the way they can survive from all these. Ya Allah, You're the greatest thing in this world, You're the only one who knows what's going on today and tomorrow, please keep save all the citizens of Sumbar and Jambi. Please, give them all a powerfull strength and lots of patience to face all the problems they had...

This photo was taken from Kompas

Let's talk about another good news from Indonesia! On October 2rd, Batik was officially designated by UNESCO as cultural heritage from Indonesia. And, the president of Indonesia, Susilo Bambang Yudhoyono, had asked to all our citizens to wear batik on that day. I love that day! I love wearing batik so much! I'm proud of batik as the most unique cultural heritage in the world. Sometimes I find some people who don't like to wear batik as their daily clothes. They think batik can't be dressed into casually. Hey guys, batik doesn't have to be designed formally, it can be dressed casually for any situations. They don't respect to our culture indeed, they don't proud of our nation and batik. Nevertheless, I was really happy to see many people (at mall, campus, and office) wore batik on last friday!!

This photo also was taken from Kompas , they are so cute in wearing batik, aren't they?

Happy ied mubarak 1430 H

Idul fitri is the only one moment that I always wait to celebrate with my family in every year..
Idul fitri is the greatest day to gather with all my family members..
Idul fitri is the best moment to forgive and being forgiven..
Idul fitri is the greatest time to refresh our mind and heart from wickness..
Idul fitri is the most beautiful moment to go back and start living from zero..
Idul fitri is the most beautiful moment to end our fasting in Ramadhan..
really, lebaran is the most beautiful moment indeed..

well, i know it's too late to say.. Before we're going back to our routines on Monday, let me say:

"HAPPY IED MUBARAK 1430 H. I wish we had a wonderful time in ied's day this year. I wish we had a very great time to celebrate this special day with all of our family members in everywhere. I wish our fasting, our prayer, and our wishes (during Ramadhan) could be received by Allah SWT, amien ya Allah. Thanks for making a very beautiful moment in our life, ya Allah.."

-ayu&family-

Dua Puluh Dua

Halo semuanya! It's been a long time i've never updated my own blog, it's been almost 2months actually! tapi, ya udahlah terlalu banyak peristiwa yang terjadi dalam kehidupan saya hingga kemudian saya tidak terpikir (baca: malas) untuk menguraikannya di jurnal harian maya ini. Mulai dari peristiwa meninggalnya mbah surip, bom di jakarta, penggerebekkan teroris, gempa bumi, hasil keputusan KPU, tujuh belasan, dan bahkan film-film yang (sesungguhnya) harus di-review oleh saya. Salah satu peristiwa yang telah terlewatkan untuk diulas kembali adalah ulang tahun saya yang sudah sangat cukup berumur bagi seorang perempuan yang akan menjadi wanita.

Dua puluh dua.

Tiga tahun lagi (insya Allah) akan menjadi dua puluh lima.

Awal mulanya saya agak sedikit berat dengan memasuki umur dua puluh dua. Lantaran, dua puluh dua bukan angka nominal yang kecil lagi. Melainkan angka yang sudah termasuk kategori tingkat dua puluhan.

Risau. Takut. Gelisah. Tiga kata yang barusan saya ketik sangat pas untuk menggambarkan perasaan ketika saya sadar telah berumur dua puluh dua tahun.

Saya risau karena saya masih belum bisa membahagiakan kedua orang tua secara lahiriah, batiniah, dan (tentunya finansial). Klise, memang. Saya tahu semua orang pasti ingin sekali membahagiakan kedua orang tuanya. Tapi, saya merasa sedih. Sangat sedih. Sangat berat. Terlebih dengan latar belakang kedua orang tua saya. Saya merasa malu. Malu sekali di hadapan orang tua saya. Apalah artinya saya di hadapan ibu dan ayah. Saya merasa kecil dan tidak berarti bagi mereka.

Ibu dan ayah adalah sosok yang terlalu hebat bagi saya. Terlalu banyak orang yang membanggakan betapa hebatnya ibu dan ayah. Terlalu banyak orang yang mengagumi ibu dan ayah. Terlalu banyak orang yang mengakui kesempurnaan antara keduanya. Terlalu banyak orang yang mengangkat topi mereka untuk kedua orang tua saya.

Bukannya saya sombong. Saya tidak bermaksud untuk menyombongkan diri sendiri. Saya tidak bermaksud untuk membusungkan dada. Sama sekali tidak ada maksud. Sejujurnya, saya justru sangat keberatan. Anda boleh mengira bahwa saya sangat tidak bersyukur kepada Allah. Tapi, maaf perkiraan anda salah besar. Saya selalu mengucapkan syukur kepada-Nya atas apa karunia Allah kepada kehidupan saya.

Saya hanya merasa kerdil. Saya bahkan tidak tahu apa yang bisa dibanggakan dari saya. Anda boleh bilang bahwa saya tidak percaya diri. Maaf, tapi anda salah. Saya pun masih percaya diri dengan kemampuan saya baik secara akademik maupun nonakademik.

Ibu.. maaf. Saya belum bisa membahagiakanmu sampai detik ini. Ayah.. maaf. Saya belum bisa membantu perekonomian keluarga. Apalah arti pekerjaan ajar-mengajar. Hasilnya pun tak cukup untuk membuktikan bahwa saya bisa memperkokoh keadaan finansial kita. Walau begitu, saya sangat bersyukur karena saya masih diberi pekerjaan oleh Allah dan diberi kesempatan untuk berbagi ilmu kepada mereka yang membutuhkan. Tapi, saya sudah memohon kepada Allah agar saya diijinkan dan diberi kesempatan untuk membahagiakan kalian hingga ajal memisahkan kita. Allah pasti mengabulkan, saya tahu pasti soal itu.

Saya takut karna saya sudah dua puluh dua tahun hidup di dunia ini. Entah berapa banyak waktu lagi yang diberikan Allah kepada saya untuk beramal di dunia.

-ayah dan ibu-

A post-tag about : Triplet Answers

Gud nite bloggers! I've got a post-tag from Sarah and Ajeng some weeks ago by using facebook actually. But I prefer doing this homework in my own blog than facebook. Here are the rules..

What you're supposed to do... and please do not spoil the fun...
Create a new post, copy and paste this post, delete my answers and type in yours.
Then tag 21 good friends and family INCLUDING the person who tagged you.
The theory is that you will learn one new thing about each of your friends.

THREE NAMES I GO BY
1. Ayu (it's commonly used by the people around me)
2. Santi (some of my old friends call me by using the middle of my name)
3. Kakak (it's only used for my family)

THREE JOBS I HAVE HAD IN MY LIFE
1. College student (but, i've just graduated from college since a month ago)
2. Reporter (last year)
3. Unfortunately, i'm being a jobless now, i'm still trying to get the most suitable place for work!

THREE PLACES I HAVE LIVED
1. Bandung
2. Bima, Nusa Tenggara Barat
3. Jakarta, Bekasi

THREE TV SHOWS THAT I WATCH
1. News programme
2. Oprah Winfrey Show
3. other TV programmes

THREE PLACES I WANT TO GO
1. Prague!!
2. United States of America
3. Aceh and the last city I want to go is Papua

THREE OF MY FAVORITE FOODS
1. Ayam Bakar Taliwang
2. Pelecing Kangkung
3. Sate Ayam

THINGS I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO
1. get a job as reporter (again!)
2. get a higher score on my TOEFL (i'll be having a test on august, wish me luck!)
3. take a driving lesson

THREE FRIENDS WHO WILL REPLY
1. i don't know.. :(
2.
3.

THREE FAVORITE BANDS/SINGERS
1. Muse, maroon 5, coldplay
2. Rihanna, natalie imbruglia, nelly furtado, Lenka, and kelly clarkson
3. Jason Mraz, James Morrison (sorry, i've mentioned more than three bands or singers,hehe)

THREE FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH
1. Badminton
2. Football
3. -

THREE FAVORITE DRINKS
1. Mineral Water
2. Chocolate Milk
3. -

Then, I'm tagging this post to Nifa, Tyka, Fajrin, Danisha, and Mustika , happy tagging and happy blogging all!

Hate that I love you

Hey, everyone! It's already on July! yeay, i'm so glad to welcome this month!

But, i'm missing my boy out there, really, i'm missing him now. Have I told you before about my ex-boyfriend? He was my classmate in campus, He's also my best friend in campus, even though our relationship has already broken up, but, we're still having a good relationship and friendship until now. We're still connect each other, everyday, everyweek, and everymonth. Lately, i feel i don't want to let him go from my life, so does he.

Really.
It seems to be very hard to get him off.
It seems to be very hard for us to have someone new.
It seems to be very hard to have a new relationship with another people.

He's still finishing his thesis, fyi, he's trying to keep focus on thesis until this month. I haven't met him since three weeks ago, he told me that he wanted to finish his last assigment, then we could spend much time together. I hope he's doing okay with his thesis, I hope he could finish his thesis in this month, so he would have the judgement day immediately, and I hope he'll text me again for giving me a good news. Yaa, I can't wait to hear another good news from him, because i'm missing him already and I hate that I love him so. You know, like a part of lyric from Rihanna and Neyo..

And I hate how much I love you boy
I can't stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just can't let you go
And I hate that I love you so (Hate that I love you)

Or maybe like the lyric from Jason Mraz featuring Colbie which is titled "Lucky".. Indeed, our friendship becomes a good relationship..

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

I feel so lucky that I'm in love with my best friend, yup, my best friend is my boyfriend!

in the last week of June

It's already in the last week of June, three more days it will be on July. I hope I could be so lucky in July, amien. Because, I've to prove for unanswered question (immediately) which makes me getting worse during this month. Yaa, I've to prove to the world that I can get a job. Am I worrying too much? I think I'm not. Am I hoping too much? I think I'm not. I feel so weak when I know some of my college's friends has got a job. I had tried to become a realistic person, not perfectionist. I'm still trying to be optimistic to get my unanswered question. Hopefully, Allah SWT will give the best way to make my parents proud of me. amien.

Talking about how the way to make our parents proud of us, my younger sister has just made them proud of her by being the freshman in communication of Padjajaran University (UNPAD). I was very happy to hear that news. Before she is accepted in communication of UNPAD, she has already failed to get architecture of IPB and graphic design of ITB. Nevertheless, she never stops praying to Allah for the best choice university. Then, the dream comes, she has been officially accepted in UNPAD, congratulation sis! you did it!

In the last week of June, we heard a bad news that Michael Jackson has died in the age of 50. He's kinda a great man and the best singer of pop. Eveybody loves him, who doesn't love him? Who doesn't know him? I think everybody knows him as the best king of pop. I know him even if I don't know all his songs. "Heal the world" is one of the greatest song from him. I love the lyric in that song. The lyric tells about how to respect with the people and the living in this world. I hope God will do the rest for him, amien. All of us will be missing you, jacko! You will never be forgotten! We must be proud of you, jacko! You're the only one singer who sings a great lyric like this lyric below..

There's a place in your heart
And I know that it is love
And this place could be much
Brighter than tomorrow

And if you really try
You'll find there's no need to cry
In this place you'll feel
There's no hurt or sorrow

There are ways to get there
If you care enough for the living
Make a little space
Make a better place

Heal the world
Make it a better place
For you and for me
And the entire human race
There are people dying
If you care enough for the living
Make a better place
For you and for me