what a busy life!

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kapan ya terakhir gue update blog ini? 23 Oktober 2013.. It was 6 months ago. hahaha, lama banget ya udah lama gak update blog ini. Well, gue mau cerita mengenai apa sih yang bikin gue sibuk banget akhir-akhir ini. here we go.

Kuliah (lagi)
tahun lalu, tepatnya, gue memutuskan untuk kuliah lagi. this is not soooo easy to decide. karena, ketika gue sudah memutuskan untuk kuliah lagi, maka gue sudah harus paham konsekuensinya. Pertama, ya jelas lah gue harus mengimbangi pikiran, otak, dan hati gue antara kerja dan kuliah S2. men, gak gampang ya ternyata menjalankan keduanya dengan seimbang. Seimbang bukan berarti gue kerja weekdays dan kuliah saat weekend. gak semudah itu, ternyata. ini semua tentang bagaimana gue bisa belajar manajemen waktu antara kerja, kuliah, istirahat, hangout sama temen-temen, dan waktu buat keluarga. Manajemen waktunya pun bisa dimulai dari hal kecil, misalnya gimana caranya gue bisa tetep produktif dan efisien dalam bekerja di kantor dari pagi sampai sore, namun malam harinya gue disibukkan dengan menyicil tugas kuliah. bagaimana caranya emosi gue juga terjaga saat gue bekerja dengan super hectic di kantor, namun gue akan menghadapi ujian pula di kampus. Bisa dibayangkan betapa hati dan otak gue bisa naik turun super cepat dalam waktu yg singkat? Kedua, tak lain dan tak bukan adalah masalah materi. Dikarenakan gue kuliah lagi dengan biaya sendiri dan mendapat bantuan pinjaman dari ortu, maka grafik pengeluaran dan pendapatan gue menjadi kacau. Tapi bersyukur sih masih bisa ada yang ditabung. Tapi tetep aja grafiknya sangatlah fluktuatif. Sampai pada akhirnya, oke gue memutuskan untuk mulai memangkas waktu dan uang aktifitas yang berbau hedonisme. bahkan gue udah berbulan-bulan gak menginjakkan kaki di bioskop loh. bahkan gue rela deh gak ngerencanain liburan indah dengan biaya sendiri. Ya kalo pun mau liburan sama keluarga aja, hehehehehehe, tipikal anak manja.

that's a little glimpse of my life recently! hidup gue akhir-akhir ini bisa dibilang kayak rollercoaster. mulai dari kerjaan yang makin menggila dan makin seru, belum lagi meeting to meeting, dan dinamika pekerjaannya. But, that's how life goes on, we can't do nothing unless we take action, pray, and face all the problems out there. believe me, what I'm doing right now is not something useless for the next 5 or even 10 years later, I believe Insya Allah I would have an amazing life in the next future. amin.

Lukisan

 Tuhan membuat lukisan yang indah di pagi hari ini. Lukisan ciptaan-Nya bikin saya selalu ingat dengan Tuhan.

thanks ya Allah for giving me a very beautiful life :)

2013, suprise me pleasantly please!

2013 will be coming up few weeks later. Yes, it's December 2012 already. Here is what I wanna say..

As I did few years ago, I listed some wishes to be implemented for the upcoming year. For 2013, I haven't listed any wishes. This doesn't mean I don't have any wishes or plans for my life in the next year. I have a lot of plans. I have a lot of wishes. But, I don't want to write it down and to make a list of them. This doesn't mean I don't prepare myself well.

This means I want to face this life naturally. This means I want to walk away without plans. This means I don't need to run for life. This means I want to live freely, not to live with any kind of ambitious goals. And the last important thing, let Allah SWT arrange my life without any purposes from me, because I believe Allah SWT already set up my life with his best plans.

So, 2013, come over please! I really can't wait for any suprises from Allah in 2013.

somehow..

 the picture taken from here

Somehow.. I miss loving someone and being loved by someone..

Again, I hate being left by someone

Lagi, gue kehilangan. Kali ini gue kehilangan seseorang yang dekat sekali dengan kehidupan gue. Dia adalah Mbak Asih. Mbak Asih adalah asisten rumah tangga yang sudah bekerja di rumah gue selama kurang lebih 17 tahun. Anyway, gue gak suka pakai kata 'pembantu' karena rasanya sebutan itu tidaklah pantas mengingat she's not only servant or maid for us, but she's much more precious to be a part of our family, so I'd like to say 'Mbak' and pretend her as my sister, not my servant or maid.

Mencari seseorang seperti Mbak Asih tidaklah mudah. Singkat cerita setelah berganti-ganti asisten rumah tangga, kami sekeluarga dipertemukan dengan Mbak Asih. Mbak Asih pun mulai bekerja di rumah gue saat gw berumur 8 tahun. Awalnya dia bekerja bersama kakaknya, Mbak Ul, di rumah gue. Namun, karena mbak Ul harus menikah, jadilah mbak Asih kemudian membawa adiknya, Mbak Mul bekerja. Artinya, sejak gue berumur 8 tahun hingga gw sudah mencapai seperempat abad, Mbak Asih tetap dengan setianya bekerja di rumah gue. Bagi kami, mbak Asih is too precious for us. Dia bekerja melebihi kapasitasnya sebagai asisten rumah tangga. Melebihi kapasitas di sini maksudnya adalah she also plays role as a sister and a 'mother' for me and my sister at home for years.

Mbak Asih (kiri) dan Mbak Mul (kanan)

Ketika nyokap bokap gue belum pulang kantor atau harus bertugas ke luar kota bahkan ke luar negeri selama berhari-hari, Mbak Asih lah yang senantiasa berperan sebagai kakak kami, 'ibu kedua' kami (this doesn't mean I ignore my mom as the real mother), dan sahabat kami. Selain mengerjakan pekerjaan rumah, Mbak Asih dengan sigapnya membantu kami belajar, mendengarkan curhatan kami, memberikan  kami nasihat, dan tak pernah henti-hentinya mengingatkan kami untuk shalat agar selalu ingat kepada Allah SWT. This been running for a dozen years. Hati kami pun terpaut satu sama lain. Mbak Asih selalu ada untuk kami, begitupun sebaliknya. Kami selalu ada untuk memberikan hiburan dan menyenangkan hati bagi Mbak Asih mulai dari hal-hal kecil seperti menonton DVD bareng di rumah, pergi ke bioskop bareng, dan liburan ke luar kota bersama. Terlalu begitu banyak kenangan bersama Mbak Asih dan kami sekeluarga tahu that she has a big heart for us and we also have a big heart for her. Because of this, rasanya terlalu berat jikalau kami ditinggal Mbak Asih untuk menikah dan tidak bekerja lagi di rumah kami.


Ya, hari ini pun tiba. Hari di mana kami harus ikhlas melepaskan Mbak Asih yang sudah memutuskan akan menikah dalam waktu dekat dan tidak lagi kembali ke rumah kami. Kami tahu bahwa kami harus siap dengan situasi ini. Namun, pada kenyataannya kami harus menerima bahwa Mbak Asih terlalu berharga untuk kami lepaskan. Mbak Asih selalu punya cinta dan kasih sayang untuk kami. Kami sekeluarga pun punya cinta dan kasih sayang untuk Mbak Asih. As I ever told you on my previous post, Again, I hate being left by someone (who close to my life)


"Ya Allah, hamba mohon berikanlah kebahagiaan sebanyak-banyaknya kepada Mbak Asih sekeluarga dan keluarga barunya kelak. Ya Allah, hamba mohon berikanlah kasih-Mu dan cinta-Mu kepada Mbak Asih melebihi apa yang bisa kami berikan kepadanya selama bertahun-tahun. Ya Allah, hamba mohon lindungilah Mbak Asih selalu dalam setiap langkahnya, amin". - doa kakak.

Mbak Asih, kakak berterima kasih sama Mbak untuk segalanya yang mbak berikan kepada kakak dan adek. Thanks for the love, thanks for the laughs, thanks for the cry, thanks for the advise, thanks for the thoughts, thanks for the shoulder. Mbak Asih, you're one of the best people who colors my life. I love you, I still love you, I've been loving you, and I'm gonna miss you so much.

With a huge love from my heart,

Kakak.

Aki, too many love from him and too many love for him

Aki was written by Ajip Rosidi (one of Indonesian litterateurs) and published on Pikiran Rakyat newspaper last monday. who doesn't love him? everybody loves him so much. we love you, will always love you, and has been loving you so much, Aki.

:)

Kita semua sayang Aki

Seminggu yang lalu, saat dalam perjalanan pulang dari kantor ke rumah, gue dikasih kabar melalui Blackberry Messenger oleh Nyokap kalo Aki (bahasa sundanya kakek) tidak sadarkan diri dan gue refleks berdoa supaya Aki masih dikasih umur panjang. Tapi sesampainya gue di rumah, gue justru mendapat kabar kalo Aki sudah berpulang ke Rahmatullah. Malam itu juga, gue beserta nyokap bokap berangkat ke Bandung.



Ya, Aki, kakek kami tercinta, telah meninggalkan kami untuk selama-lamanya dalam usia ke - 97. Sembilan puluh tujuh, usianya. Bukan perkara mudah untuk mencapai usia seperti Aki. Sudahlah, gue gak ada maksud untuk membicarakan usia Aki yang panjang.

Gue bersyukur masih bisa kenal Aki sampai umur gue hampir seperempat abad. Karena, gue belum sempat mengenal kakek Muma (ayah dari papa) di Bima, jadi gue senang sekali bisa memiliki Aki yang tiada kalah hebatnya dengan kakek Muma. Yes, for me, Aki is another great grandpa (besides kakek Muma).

Bagi gue, Aki is another role model (selain kakek muma beserta nyokap bokap gue). Aki itu sosok yang penyayang. sayang sekali dengan anak, cucu, bahkan cicitnya. Aki tidak pernah membeda-bedakan anak, cucu, cicit, bahkan para menantu di dalam keluarga Wastukencana. Tulusnya cinta dan kasih sayang Aki begitu terasa kepada kami. Begitu juga dengan kami, para turunannya, sangat menyayangi dan mencintai Aki sepenuhnya. saking banyaknya orang yang menyayangi Aki, rumahmu selalu didatangi tamu pelayat, Ki. Terlalu banyak orang yang datang mulai dari hari meninggalmu sampai hari ketujuh ini.

Selain sifat penyayang, kami belajar silaturahmi darimu, Ki. Darimu, kami belajar agar senantiasa menjaga tali silaturahmi mulai dari keluarga, sanak saudara, rekan kerja, bahkan orang-orang yang memiliki strata rendah. Ya, Aki merangkul semua orang untuk bertukar pikiran. Dengan cara itulah Aki bersilaturahmi. Silaturahmi yang telah Aki lakukan selama kurang lebih 8 dekade terbukti dari banyaknya orang yang mendatangi pemakamanmu hingga pengajianmu..

Ah, Aki, Engkau terlalu begitu dicintai oleh kami dan juga Allah SWT. we miss you already. Aki, thanks for the advices, thanks for thoughts, thanks for your love, thanks for the laughs, thanks for everything you already gave to your extended family here. Love you, Aki. :')

Feeling Grateful

helllooo blog. it's been two months that I haven't had anything to be posted in this blog. what kind of things should I post? when is the right time to post? I really have no idea. Really have no idea what things should I post here, cause, to be honest, my life has changed to be a super crazy life at office. my life turns to be sooooo busier than what I've done a year ago. This is really challenging. Thanks God for giving me a super crazy life, at least this makes me to be a well-organized and well-managed person.

Ok, now what? Is there any topics that could be told to you? Well, at this time, I really feel grateful for having a super crazy job, a newly super crazy life at office, and awesome office mates there. I totally have been having so much fun in everyday, though,it doesn't not always be fun, does it? at least, I can feel the joy!

Thanks God for giving me awesome things in every seconds I step in this great life! :)

Have a great weekend, fellas!

I'm not that fuckin' perfect and yes, I'm a loser ;)

By reading few parts of lyric from Pink in her song, I'm really being inspired :

"The whole world's scared so I swallow the fear.
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer.
So cool in line, and we try try try, but we try too hard and it's a waste of my time.

Done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere.
They dont like my jeans; they don't get my hair.
Exchange ourselves, and we do it all the time.
Why do we do that? Why do I do that?

Why do I do that?

Yeah, oh, oh baby, pretty baby
Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than fuckin' perfect." (Fuckin' Perfect - Pink)

Or another part of lyric from Glee makes me stronger to smile in everyday :

"Yeah, you may think that I'm a zero
But hey, everyone you wanna be probably started off like me
You may say that I'm a freak show (I don't care)
But hey, give it just a little time, I betcha gonna change your mind

All of the dirt you've been throwin' my way
It ain't so hard to take (That's right)
'Cause I know one day you'll be screamin' my name
And I'll just look away (That's right)

Just go ahead and hate on me and run your mouth (So everyone can hear)
Hit me with the worst you got and knock me down (Baby, I don't care)
Keep it up and soon enough you'll figure out
You wanna be, you wanna be
A loser like me! A loser like me!

Push me up against the locker
And hey, all I'll do is shake it off, and getcha back when I'm your boss
I'm not thinkin' 'bout you haters
'Cause hey, I could be a superstar, I'll see you when you wash my car " (Loser Like Me - Glee)

So, have you guys had few songs to make you alive? Happy Vesak Day for bloggers who celebrate! :)

awesomeness on saturday night

what can we say and feel more thankful than having a very wonderful time with old mates?

YES, I'M STRONG

via i can read

:)

A Meaningful Lyric

To my mom and my dad,

Andai aku t'lah dewasa
Apa yang 'kan kukatakan
Untukmu idolaku tersayang
Ayah... Oh...

Andai usiaku berubah
Kubalas cintamu bunda
Pelitaku, penerang jiwaku
Dalam setiap waktu

Oh... Kutahu kau berharap dalam doamu
Kutahu kau berjaga dalam langkahku
Kutahu s'lalu cinta dalam senyummu
Oh Tuhan, Kau kupinta bahagiakan mereka sepertiku

Andai aku t'lah dewasa
Ingin aku persembahkan
Semurni cintamu, setulus kasih sayangmu
Kau s'lalu kucinta

Andai usiaku berubah
Kubalas cintamu bunda
Pelitaku, penerang jiwaku
Dalam setiap waktu

Oh... Kutahu kau berharap dalam doamu
Kutahu kau berjaga dalam langkahku
Kutahu s'lalu cinta dalam senyummu
Oh Tuhan, Kau kupinta bahagiakan mereka sepertiku

Andai aku t'lah dewasa
Ingin aku persembahkan
Semurni cintamu, setulus kasih sayangmu
Kau s'lalu kucinta


with lots of love,

kakak.

note : lirik ini diambil dari salah satu lagu yang pernah dinyanyikan oleh Sherina. You all might have listened to this song when you were kids. :)

Between God and The Reality among Us

Hello readers! How was your life recently? I hope everything goes well. So, what I'm gonna write? I'll tell about what I've got from one of most watched TV series, How I Met Your Mother (HIMYM).

How I Met Your Mother Season 4 (The Leap Episode)

In one of the episodes from HIMYM, Ted seemed to be stressful when he was designing a restaurant. He was ordered by his client to design a restaurant, called by Rib Town, is designed like Cowboy Hat. Yaa, the shape of restaurant must be similiar to cowboy hat. Could you imagine how the building will be? Could you imagine how the difficulty of designing building like cowboy hat? On the day before his birthday, he tried to design all day in his apartment. Although, he will be having birthday on the next day. Although, his friends (Marshall, Lily, Robin, and Barney) already had prepared a suprise birthday party on the roof of their apartment. But, he was still kept working on his design until midnight. Well, I'm not gonna tell about the rest of its story.


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In the end, Ted was failed to persuade his client about his design, though he have had presentation before. Poor him. After losing the job from a company, he wasn't succeed to develop his architectural design firm. As Lily said, he might have to accept a job at the University. Ted was advised by Lily to accept job as lecturer in architecture classes. In this moment, Lily told him to stop chasing what he can't get and told him to let God show what the best for him. I still remember what Lily said to Ted :

may be you won't design building, but you will design your life

Well, what Lily said above is really true. As I told you in some older posts, I've ever dreamt to be a journalist someday. Journalist has been becoming my dream since I was in high school. I've never been thinking of other jobs, unless being journalist. But, what I'm supposed to say if God wants me to be (an assistant) lecturer, like Ted? What I've got from this episode is we might have to know between God and the reality among us.

Coffee and Chocolate

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I renewed and edited my bio on twitter yesterday. I said there, " I used to love drinking coffee, but now, seriously, I don't love drinking coffee ". Anymore. I'd rather choose a cup of hot chocolate than a cup of coffee. Why does this change happen to me? And since when did I start not to consume caffeine in coffee?

When I was in senior high school, I was influenced by the habit of my father, exactly by consuming caffeine in coffee. My father is the most active smoker and coffee drinker in his whole life. Coffee and cigarette look like his best friend forever. When he needs an idea to come, he starts smoking and drinking a coffee. When he starts writing, he takes cigarette and coffee. Like, nothing else, except them.

Okay, back to the main person of this writing, me. I saw coffee as good as chocolate. As I take a sip of coffee, it gives me an relaxing feeling, so does chocolate. Since I was in senior high school, I started to love drinking a cup of coffee. I'd rather made a strongly instant coffee to drink most of the time. So that, I felt enjoy and enjoyed the moment while I was having a cup of either originally black coffee or mix coffee. Most of the time, I used to prefer enjoying many variety of coffee, such as cappucino, espresso, hazelnut coffee, coffee latte, and even instant coffee. I used to drink a cup of coffee in every morning, every noon, and every night. It means I used to drink at least three times a day. At that time, I haven't felt any bad effects from coffee. I only felt positive effect, a relaxing moment, after sipping a cup of coffee.

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Nevertheless, as the time goes by, I became addicted to any coffee! Unlike others, who haven't been influenced by bad effect from drinking coffee, I had been feeling that my heart always beats so fast. Unluckily me, I'm not the one who fits with coffee, due to my heart's condition. Or perhaps, this relates to my low blood pressure. I always feel scared when the beat of my heart is getting faster, after drinking a cup of original black coffee or mix coffee. This makes me worry about bad effect to my health. I felt worry about its health effect. After asking advise to other people, like doctor and my parents, I decided to stop drinking coffee no matter what condition I got. The conclusion is I'm not suitable to consume coffee. I'd prefer drinking a hot chocolate rather than a cup of coffee. And, I feel better after drinking a cup of hot chocolate.


Anyhow, drinking a cup of hot chocolate is more relaxing, more healthy, and more enjoyable than drinking a cup of coffee! :)




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Flintstone and childhood

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This is what I found when I tried to search some references through google. I found FLINTSTONE as the main image of google. I love Flintstone. I love the story of Flintstone. I love watching Flintstone when I was a kid! And, I'm missing Flintstone and my childhood now..

"Yabba dabba doo!"

Selamat Hari Raya Idul Fitri 1431 H

When you look at your life, the greatest happinesses are family happinesses.
~Joyce Brothers

Selamat Hari Raya Idul Fitri 1431 H

Mohon Maaf Lahir dan Batin

Semoga kita semua bisa bertemu di bulan Ramadhan tahun selanjutnya, Amin.

People who always be called with FRIENDS

From : thoughtquestions.com

I only have few friends who can be trusted and trust with me :)

Hello life! Hello problems!

Life, I have bravery to struggle with all problems

Life, I have a big confidence to solve all problems

Life, I have a big heart to deal with all problems

Life, I have a strong body to face all problems

Life, I have a masculinity inside of my femininity to meet with all problems

This photo is taken from my dad's folder, he was seeing sunset in Kaimana, Papua

Life, I have a powerful soul to stand and give a sincere smile to all problems

Life, I have a cheerful smile to say "hello" to all problems

Life, I have a great laugh to laugh to all problems

Life, I have great friends to accompany me and to be my shoulder to find out the solution from all problems

Life, I have Allah SWT to help me out from all problems

This post is dedicated for everyone who has problem and never feel tired to face all problems.. :)

A letter to my sister

To my beloved sister,

Since we were kid, I've believed that we would build a good friendship like all people do with their sister or brother.
Since we were kid, I've promised with myself to protect you from crimes and dangers in my whole life.
Since we were kid, I've told to myself that I would be a good sister and a role model for you.

I'm sure, no matter how big the storm hit either you or our family, you would stand up with your own feet.
I'm sure, no matter how big the rock hit either you or our family, you would say : "I'm still strong".
I'm sure, no matter how big the storm hit either you or our family, you would prove that you are fine as much as you can.
I'm sure, no matter how big the rock hit either you or our family, you would keep smiling, laughing, and also doing something fun yet useful.




This afternoon, I saw you that you couldn't stop laughing with me and our parents..
This afternoon, I saw you that you couldn't stop smiling to anyone around you..
This afternoon, I saw you that you couldn't stop eating something delicious..
This afternoon, I saw you that you couldn't stop acting very spoiled to us..
This afternoon, I saw you that you couldn't stop playing Scrabble with me..
This afternoon, I saw you that you didn't want to miss any seconds or any minutes with us.. This afternoon, I saw you that you didn't let me to be the winner at Scrabble.. (hehehe)

Well, this is not a poem, this is only what's on my mind, and this is my thought at this time.. Anyway, selamat merayakan hari Nyepi bagi para bloggers yang merayakannya! Always be peaceful with love!

Hidup = abstrak, rumit, dan indah

Hidup itu memang abstrak.
Abstrak karena kita selalu berhadapan dengan berbagai pertanyaan.
Abstrak karena kita terkadang belum mendapatkan jawaban atas berbagai pertanyaan yang ada.
Abstrak karena semuanya masih abu-abu.
Abstrak karena kita belum mendapatkan kejelasan dan kepastian tentang apa sih hidup itu dan apa tujuannya?.

foto ini dibuat oleh fanny

Hidup itu memang rumit.
Rumit karena kita selalu menghadapi masalah.
Rumit karena masalah yang datang tidak hanya satu, tetapi dua atau bahkan lebih dari dua.
Rumit karena kita selalu berhadapan dengan pilihan.
Rumit karena ketika kita sudah memutuskan sebuah pilihan, maka kita harus menerima segala konsekuensinya, baik dan buruk.

Hidup itu pada akhirnya akan indah.
Indah karena kita telah mengetahui jawaban atas semua pertanyaan.
Indah karena kita telah menerima jawaban tersebut dengan lapang dada dan ikhlas.
Indah karena kita bisa lulus melewati segala macam masalah dengan tenang dan pikiran dingin.
Indah karena kita bisa memutuskan sesuatu hal dengan segala konsekuensinya.
Indah karena kita selalu tegar dan sabar dalam menjalankan hidup.
Indah karena kita selalu memberi kepada orang lain.
Indah karena kita selalu meminta perlindungan kepada Allah SWT.

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